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Book: The Midnight Library

It is one of the books that blown my mind. It's very well written and would probably relate with a lot of people who are in their journey to find themselves.  So many people are talking about it but I did not buy it until a few months ago where I read the preview on the first pages. Easy for me to see if I want to buy the book or not. When the first pages hook me right away, I don't need to think twice. This book is one of them.  This contains spoiler of course.  Nora, the main character, like many of us, fall into depression and decided to kill herself. But she's not dead right away. She went into a kind of limbo between life and death. In that library she met a librarian, this librarian is a kind of a guide. Our guide that probably tasked when we were born.    The librarian shows her lives that she could have had if she wants to. She is so depressed and thinks that no life will makes her happy enough to live it. I can totally understand her state. I was there....

Time runs so fast

Tomorrow is 2016. Time runs so fast. I still remember the first day on 2015, I felt that “Okay.. it gonna be next 12 months”. But time runs so fast. So fast. I felt it’s still January, but yesterday I realize that it is December already. Oh well..
 
What had happened in 2015?

As a life, there are always 2 opposite things. Like happiness and sadness. Like black and white. Like up and down. I felt it much. I remember when I went to Jakarta 2 times in a month. I moved to a new place, a place that wouldn’t be my choice but now I am used to it *unless, someone who always ask me to resign and move back to my lovely place*. First half of year 2015 was great. And next half of year 2015, problems comes one by one. No use to write the problems but yeah problem just a problem. Also I have to wait more… ok.. no problem *it used to be a problem, but now*. I did cried a lot and more often than usual. Just to release the burdens.

My mind couldn’t remember all of things that had happened in 2015.

Wishes for 2016?

Well.. everyone wants to be better day by day. It’s not about the year, just everyone have to be better day by day. And have benefits for others. Me and my beloved people stay healthy, safe and most of all we should be thankful for everything that we have.

For a moment, I lose all my cheerful, lose hope, being pessimistic, didn’t trust anyone, lose everything. I didn’t consider myself as the most person that suffers from all difficult problems, no. just… weary. All those problems happen almost in same time. I even couldn’t believe that it happen to myself. Not about this problem could happen to me, no, but about losing all of my optimist character, cheerful, trust. For a moment, yes.

All that I need is time. Because it will be healed by the time. It could be so hurting now, but I am sure it will be healed soon. Usually I don’t need much time to be healed, but for now I need much more time to be healed. 

Karena memang sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan memberikan cobaan diluar batas kemampuan manusia.

Well.. it is life. It won’t stop until it is asked to.

Thank you and sorry for everyone, for every moments, for everything in whole 2015.

Let’s be positive and optimist in 2016!!

 

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